December 23, 2004 I went to back Sparky's last night. I had myself a fine time as usual. I decided to wear out my Super Bright White Shoes that Eloise gave me. Don't blame her, they were just sitting in her trunk from a previous boyfriend. I HATE brand new white shoes. I see them in my peripheral vision when I walk and it distracts me. The exact same effect I get when I run around barefoot. I've worn white shoes before, but I'm not really happy with them until they get to just the right stage of being dirty. Not too dirty, but not blinding white either. These shoes are soooo bad that I think I'm going to try to keep them extra white just for fun though.

We headed to Rudford's after a few beers so we could stuff ourselves with good greasy food. I contemplated what would happen if I stuck my fork into the electrical outlet, Saratonin giggled a lot and then we drove back to Sparky's for more beer. Yay! Holidays!

I actually hate the holidays except that I get a few extra days off work. My problem is that I already can't stand to go out in public for the most part. There are way too many stupid people in the world that just waste my time and get in the way. I know that's not a nice thing to say, but I've got 32 years of experience here and I've come to the conclusion that for the most part people are oblivious to anyone except for themselves. I almost bought a shirt the other day that says "You know what your problem is? YOUR STUPID!". I actually had it in my hands and was on the way to the checkout, but decided that maybe it's just the time of year that's making me want to shout this at everyone who gets in my way. I'll go ahead and buy it if I still feel so strongly about it in a couple of months.

So... I'm a bit grumpy as you can see. Eloise is at her parents for x-mas and she's not here to keep me sane and make me smile. She gets back on Sunday. That seems like weeks away at this point, but it's actually good I guess. As much as I want to be wrapped around her 24/7 I think we both need to concentrate a little more on our respective goals in life(school for her, financial freedom for me). The problem for me is, being the selfish person that I am, that this whole relationship thing is completely new to me and I've turned into a total junky. I have to have her. As much of her as I can get. And I know that her next semester at school she's going to be unbelievably busy, which is going to really put a dent into our time together. So what do I do? Get as much of her as I can right now!